It is often when you feel strong(er) or grounded, pretty sure that you’ve now attained stability and happiness that, all of sudden, you get swept and shaken by stronger winds, a storm that you didn’t see coming.
It must be for a reason, right? but when it happens, the new storm irritates me immensely as my quiet stability was just a delightful comfort.
And it sounds or feels familiar too! because it always happens! it always comes back. This emotional or psychological challenge knocking to our door.
We are here to expand and stretch and learn more. Yes! Clearly there is not much interest in stagnation. Yes! But how do we keep direction? How do we know for sure that we will survive…this time?
I guess we don’t. we won’t know.
We need to get lost again, in order to go deeper; or higher depending on the image you prefer. Is this a rule? I’m not sure. I only know that’s how it has worked for me. And even though I feel confronted by what is required from me, I am reassured that what I have built until today is solid.
Well… I hope so anyway…
I had an osteopathic session today… My osteopath is an incredible therapist. He works holistically and intuitively. This is the second time I find someone like this. And because he is not a psychologist, he drops little bomb and then keeps working on my body. He goes like this… “your heart chakra seems quite closed. What’s the problem? do you feel unloved or something?”…… hum…yes…no! not really! I’m quite good actually, thank you!”
The thing is though…the body never lies; and the body-work (and my desire to expand) always helps to engage or embrace this challenge.
So I’m here, exhausted by this osteopathic/therapeutic session…and wondering if the tide is coming in or going out. While wondering, might as well take some picture of the view.
Recently was my birthday and these are my birthday present to myself…
A print from Tiel Seivl-Keevers
(and because my links don’t want to work… http://tsktsk.com.au )
Those prints from Core Jewellery / Damara (see http://www.etsy.com/au/shop/corejewellery )
And this beautiful original from Jeanne Marie Webb (with some beautiful prints as well!!!)
You can check her blog http://www.flowrsinherhair.co.za/ and Etsy shop links there as well.
Feeling grateful to have beautiful new art for my walls!!!
You see, I want a lot.
Perhaps I want everything
the darkness that comes with every infinite fall
and the shivering blaze of every step up.
So many live on and want nothing
And are raised to the rank of prince
By the slippery ease of their light judgments
But what you love to see are faces
that do work and feel thirst.
You love most of all those who need you
as they need a crowbar or a hoe.
You have not grown old, and it is not too late
To dive into your increasing depths
where life calmly gives out its own secret.
― Rainer Maria Rilke
Book of Hours: Love Poems to God
clearly the world needs it…
I don’t know about you but writing my most personal thoughts, the darker and ugliest ones, the hopeful ones…has helped me immensely through the years, to find my way, some direction or peace. It helped me to debrief arguments, to understand the build up of my anger, to take myself by the hand when I was sad. It’s a bit like an old faithful friend who knows you so well, who will always be here when you need it.
I don’t write as much anymore… perhaps writing a blog has distracted me from this close relationship with my inner self; or perhaps embracing creativity has helped me to express those parts of me that were kept quiet for so many years…Anyway, writing is a good thing, I say…;)
The wonderful Lisa Sonora has created the 30-Day Journal Project…If you always wanted to start a journal, this could be the time…
Go on, sign up! it’s free;)
At the moment, with the burn off season, the evening sky is always a big show…
The idea of this exercise was to go fast and bold, working on two piece alternatively…
I started with two but quickly got absorbed by this one…
I’m happy how she turned out… even though she is overworked and not so bold, the fact that I was able to make her look lovely is a great success for me!!!
and other variations of my swiss milk pot!