Being a self taught/learner artist feels at times lonely. The amazing possibility and various ranges of online workshop is fabulous and so accessible. I can learn at my own pace and try things out again and again. But the guidance, knowledge and challenges of a teacher are missing. During these times, I feel unworthy of calling myself artist, as I am feeling stuck, going into a cul-de-sac road.
I know this is the challenge I have to overcome right now if I want to pursue my creative expression. This is it, Caro! (and knowing that this feeling will visit me again from time to time)
I am doing this 100 Faces Challenge at the moment, which I tailored to suit me. I am not respecting the size that most people are doing, which is quite small (2 inches square). I thought this challenge would stretch me and it has, but not in the way I hoped for… I feel I’m confining myself in the safe and secure, the easy, the known. I mainly draw with pencils… and at the moment, I am finding myself very boring!!!
I know I have to step out of my comfit zone…but I am not sure how…and where to step out…..
Here is a few of my faces….
Now I look at them and I am really pleased…even impressed!!! I realize that I had lost perspective… We can always do better (practice makes progress after all!)… And I am learning! Stepping back to have a different perspective is ALWAYS good.
Don’t I say this all the time to my clients….;)
Happy birthday to my blog!!
2 years that we’ve traveled together!!
It has been a wonderful companionship and learning experience…
But more, it helps me to keep myself in the flow; whether straight and strong, vulnerable or raw, but at least connected.
with myself. and with others, with old friends across the world, with my family, and with new friends that I haven’t met (yet)…
It challenges me to take things further or deeper; it stimulates me to get more creative in my expressions..to step out of my comfit zone; it allows me to be me, to show up in various ways…
Sure there are times where I’d like to turn it off, unable to see any meaning to this virtual sharing world…unable to keep up between my full time job, my yearning to learn about art and creative expression, the books I want to read and life… life to live… the blog falls behind a bit I must admit!
but that kind of thought doesn’t last too long…I have built I think a bit of a relationship with this blog now…some sort of attachment to it I suppose.
So there I am, happy to be here with you and will continue to do so…
at my own pace
with my whole heart!
Happy birthday dear blog…
One of the fabulous project of Full Circle workshop from Misty Mawn is to create an explosion box… box of dreams as she called it…
For me, this will be my box of reminders…
to remind me where I came from, the journey within,
my yearning for more, for freedom mostly;
my desire for growth and integration…
(despite the running away)
my inner discoveries and exploration…
to remind myself that I matter,
that I am enough…
little and lost at times,
grounded and powerful the other times;)
and that I am daring greatly!!
THE LAKE ISLE OF INNISFREE
I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made;
Nine bean rows will I have there, a hive for the honeybee,
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.
And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight’s all a-glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet’s wings.
I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements gray,
I hear it in the deep heart’s core.
William Butler Yeats
In this new era of technology (which is not really new anymore, I know) where everything and anything is instantly accessible, we probably still think that we need to protect ourselves from what could get us…Some weird monster hiding in a corner of the computer or something…
Well…recently, I got reminded that it is larger than this and the fact that our humanity is not lost at all…that genuine friendship and generosity can happen via Internet.
Clearly Instagram has been a propulsor to my creativity but not only. I have found a supportive community that is so encouraging, friendly and trustworthy, where we all feel safe with each other. More to that is that I am finding real friends across the world…friends that I am hoping I will meet one day.
The other day, Lyn contacted me to ask if I’d be interested in receiving Alena Hennessy’s One Year Painting online course, as she was offered to gift it to someone. She thought of me! whom she had never met! how incredible is that!!?! I was stoked, speechless and so grateful!!
Later, as I knew I would be travelling to her city, I asked Lyn if she’d be keen to meet up! So we did! Instafriends becoming friends! it happens people!!! and it warms my heart!!
Lyn shared about her new art project… have a look here http://lynmarguerite.com/
Thank you Lyn! Thank you friends around the world, whom I have not met yet, whom I will meet one day…thank you! You are awesome!